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Future X (or you), is the person that can effect me most. I'm gonna be past X one day. The future me is the only person who can change my mindset. However, we'll see if what I'm going through rn is just a phase or will I think like this forever.

I partially believe that as a soul, I take control of half of my brain. My other half takes control of the things in my body that I can't control. Like pumping blood in the heart, also muscle memory. I control thinking, and my basic things like arms and legs etc.

I partially believe there's 2 of me. I'm my soul and my body is my body. My soul is in my body. Everytime my brain reacts to something, my other half of the brain is the first impression, while my half is the 2nd impression.

Every decision I make, the only person that can stop it is me. I'm the only person that I have to worry about. It's all about what I do next.

I always wanted to take someone's soul, to see how the spirits I hang with react. I wonder will it overflow me with evil joy, or will I see that victim every night in my sleep. Leaving me sleepless and paranoid for as long as I live.

Listening to music gives me 'evil energy' I feel this adrenaline-pumping wave that overflows my body when I'm in the right mood listening to the right song. I then feel evil, especially when I'm thinking about hurting / murdering somone, or when I've outsmarted someone in a situation.

I also don't want to blame them for my amusement of sin. I enjoy seeing IR people suffering mentally, not really physically. I enjoy seeing IR people suffering because they lack the knowledge or understanding of knowing how to get out of that situation.

This also include the entities I see. I'm at a position where I can choose to believe in the entities I see or believe that it's only schizophrenia. The entities I see can be manipulative sometimes. I don't want to blame my lack of emotions on that topic.

My only antagonist is me. It's me vs my body. That includes the brain.

No human will ever be near my tier. I will never look at somone and put them above me. Not a human on this earth.

I can never have a human rival. No one will ever be the same level as me.